Lions Gate: not for pussies

Started feeling the effects of the Lion's Gate, 8/8/14, about a week before.  Physically, I was grounding energies.  It felt like spinning energy of a portal and made me feel ungrounded.  Per usual, I was seduced into not being prepared for what was to come after the early energies made their way in.  As the 8/8 got closer, I became exhausted and spent a couple days on the couch after work.  Friday was the 8/8 and Saturday had me sleeping almost the entire day.  I am not sure why I even bothered to try and pretend I had a life.  My life was reduced to short bursts of activity and then back for a nap.  Belly side up.

There was also some muck which this portal dug up with its centrifuge motion, slinging it up to be released.  Old patterns of "love".

My teacher, Story Waters, presented in his StorySun Show on Saturday some old patterns in which he was dealing and what he found was a judgement against unconsciousness at the heart of it all.  That has to be the mother of all judgements.  Sort of like a root judgement as it then can branch out to so many areas and situations.  This has been a judgement I have carried most of my life.  I can easily see the heart of a situation and when people don't behave "right", it makes me annoyed, frustrated, and angry.  I felt stuck because I did not know how to express the issue and get the other person to see it.  If they could see it, would they be behaving in this way?  Perhaps.  Certainly, though, if you can't see what you are doing then you are unlikely to be able to have it pointed out to you.  Until you are ready.  There are those that probably do see the issue but still chose to behave in that manner anyway for they believe their behavior serves them.  They do not see very far down the line, short sightedness.

I do hold people to a high standard of behavior.  And get mad when they fall short.  I take great care in my life to be conscious and come from a high level of integrity.  However, we are all blind in some areas.  On purpose, and that judgement is a self judgement of my own  self imposed blindness.  It is still difficult for me to come to terms with why I would have chosen to marry a psychopath.  There was no other excuse other than self imposed blindness.  I am still waiting for my life to unfold and show me why I chose it.  If I knew, then it would be much easier to accept.  I did it for this reason ____________ fill in the blank.  Maybe it is just obvious and I am missing it.  Perhaps it is not a bigger reason than who I am because of it.  Or to have the experience of losing everything (everything is a bit dramatic but a whole god damn lot).

Today, Sunday 8/10/14, brought the awareness and integration.  Also came with it is my energy back. I was able to swim for a hour.  The biggest joy in my life was exercise and this ascension process has stolen that from me.  Especially the last two years has ripped my passion for physical play from me.  It has been about 7 years though which left me sidelined due to injuries and exhaustion.  However, today was amazing.  As I got the exercise buzz on, I bathed in it.  It is like having an abducted child return.  You knew it was alive, never gave up searching, and then it appears.  (Still, a dramatic comparison but exercise was my joy).  It was all I had in this world when things got rough.  I could always depend on my body.

It is time for the crystalline body to be activated and the Lion's Gate was the portal to begin the ignition.  It had to spin the crystalline structure which is what causes the activation.  This will be the new hu-man, the body is changing and this marks the release from dross, 3-D to 5-D.  There will still be some bumps in the road as this energy makes it way through the earth plane but let us just say it is time.  The ignition has set fire to the old world.  At it disappears you will lose more memories.  It will be as if there is no past.  The sun is burning the old world to the ground and it will be like the Phoenix rising from the ashes.  Those that have given their lives to be released in the fire, to ashes, will rise to be reborn.  Literally, you are rebirthing yourselves.  This process which started in 1999 when the first call went out, has been lengthy.  As it took many years to unwind yourselves.  You have been in this extensive rewinding/rewiring process.  The body will now start to youthen as it loses its hold on 3-D reality.  There will be new rules in this new reality and you all will love playing in the playground.  You all have taken different routes to get here and have landed in different spots, so to speak, sprinkled in various states of evolution of consciousness.  Meaning, there is always more room for growth, no matter who you are. If you are  human, there will always be more.  But you have jumped time lines and dimensions so it will bring with it new levels of consciousness.  Things that used to work, will no longer.  It will be a fun time for people and frustrating to some as they learn to release what brought them to this point.  It is time to play.  The world is anew and we are here to celebrate your arrival.  Be aware of your judgements as they are deep.  It is easy to slip back into unconsciousness but you will find out quickly that you have for you will get burned and you will be able to connect the dots.  Things are easier this way.  Follow your hearts. Follow your joys.  Release your past as it releases you.  Love Love Love.  Be more of who you are for it is beautiful.

Love or Blindness?

Oracle: Do you know what that means?

[points to a banner]

Oracle: It means know thy self. I wanna tell you a little secret, being the one is just like being in love. No one needs to tell you you are in love, you just know it, through and through.

What is this that has a hold on me?  What do you do with a love so deep that it grabs you and won't let you go?  What is this yearning to wrap myself around him?  This desire that has exploded and imploded within my heart?  Where has this come from?  Is it real? Is it true?  Is it just some old conditioning or pattern?  

My brain tells me it is ridiculous but my heart won't let go.  How has this happened with no warning?  Is it destiny or weakness?  What have I done?  

Trinity: Neo, I'm not afraid anymore. The Oracle told me that I would fall in love and that that man... the man that I loved would be The One. So you see, you can't be dead. You can't be... because I love you. You hear me? I love you.

[Trinity kisses Neo; Neo's vital signs return]

Trinity: Now get up!

The New Human-New or Enhanced Abilities with Chaz

I was talking with my pool guy Chaz today.  He was offering me financial advice on how not to pay state income tax.   We had been discussing his job and income as a pool cleaner.  He has plans to move to Costa Rica in December.  There is a huge difference between our salaries, yet he thought he had found a wonderful trick to share with me regarding taxes.  I do not know if he really understood the principle as to why you can opt out of paying state income tax-if you believe you will not make cut off to file.  However, he was giving me advice as if our financial situations were the same.  I found it interesting that he did not even consider there could be a difference and maybe this was associated with a lack of understanding about why he was able to avoiding having taxes taken out of his paycheck.

As I was processing all of this, and it happens so fast when I am in a discussion with someone; I can travel to their POV, point of view and thus have the conversation because it is as if I am stood in their shoes.  I can converse with them because I understand the reasoning.  I am there with them.  I think this may also be the reason he felt we were the same when he gave me the financial advice because he felt me as him.

I have always had this ability to see inside someone else, feel for them, and understand what they are communicating.  But I am just recognizing that this ability has opened even further.  Without notice, really.  I actually travel to their POV and I am with them.  I get it.

I told Chaz that I am more "traceable" than he.  Which was the perfect answer since it spoke to what he was really up to.  Making his money and then splitting to Costa Rica, to which he commented he had no plans on coming back to Arizona.

Then his phone rang and I looked up in the sky as I was confused because his ring tone was a quacking duck.  I am from the mid west where ducks are going or coming depending on the season and it was confusing to me being in Arizona where it is smoking hot.  The humor being that I have been playing with ducks as being a "sign" from my guidance recently.  The duck sound being odd in Arizona and it being a personal sign for me, put focus on my consciousness.  I was being shown where I was, so to speak.  There was part of me connected into Chaz but I had become unconscious of that happening.  It was akin to waking inside a dream and realizing you are dreaming  Becoming lucid.  Pretty cool.

Mean while, my pool is green and I have to call him tomorrow morning to let him know if he needs to come back.