the only good cure is a shotgun

A common trait of a psychopath is that they tortured animals as children. So why the torturing of animals as children but not as adults? I believe that psychopaths start hurting animals because they are studying how the animal reacts to pain. It is a developmental stage taken to extreme. For example, it is a normal phase for toddlers to bite-they are just coming to separate themselves from others. When a toddler bites another being and the other being yells out in pain then there is a demarcation between beings, the toddler has felt the difference between themselves and the unsuspecting bitten person.

A budding young psychopath takes this stage to the next level and has discovered when torturing animals that there is a pain response. That pain response feeds the psychopath. It is emotional feeding. The power exercised over a helpless animal is just the stimulus reminder of the pain that is to follow. So, yes, they are looking for the control and power of the animal but it is the pain response they are after.

All growed up the psychopath needs a bigger feed. They progress to humans. They start hurting human beings in place of animals. They have learned to position themselves into places of power-think heads of corporations-leaders-people in charge of children- in someway where they have control over people. The control is just the means to the end. The control is to get the pain and the feed. And that is what they are doing. Feeding on the emotions-the pain, despair and misery they inflict. They gobble this up like food for they are starving. Since they only feel shallow emotions, this is the way they feel emotion.

Without emotion you are dead to the world. Emotion is why we do anything we do, for how it makes us feel. Can you imagine not feeling other than anger or shallow resemblances of joy? Dead. They are dead and this is why nothing stops them. They are like zombies-incurable.

One of the few things I remember from grad school is a professor who said "the only good cure for a psychopath is a shotgun". I had no idea at the age of 27 what he meant as I had never considered psychopaths before. I do now.

Once in a lifetime

The venus transit is reported to occur once in a person's lifetime. It comes in pairs-two of them, separated by several years-this is my primitive understanding. I believe I read that the last venus transit was on June 8, 2004 coupled with it's mate June 5-6, 2012.

I don't remember the one in 2004. I do remember that around that time is when I left a 20 year marriage. Twas the hardest thing I had done in my life at that time. Notice I said at that time because I thought that I was done It was so difficult that I couldn't imagine having any more life challenges. It took me a few years to get back on my emotional feet again and then my life spiraled and I do mean spiraled into something in which I am just now freeing myself. Here at the time of the closing of the gates, the 2nd transit.

Note to self next go around: Do not ask for enlightenment before the venus transit....or do, if you really want it. You have to REALLY want it to survive it. And I did want it, with all of my heart and soul, it is what I wanted. It was a call so loud to me that all I could do was follow. And it didn't make sense.

On the day of the transit, June 5, I was juiced up, in good spirits and feeling pretty energetic (which has been rare since the 11-11-11). On June 6, I was feeling extremely floaty or ungrounded and tired. Sleeping most of the day. Then on June 7, I slept the entire day. I went from bed to couch and back to bed. Couldn't move. I was glued prone and I was glued supine, and then on my side, too. It was like a magnet had me. I was transfixed.

It reminded me of the birth of my son. I had an epidural which didn't take all the way. When he came down the birth canal, I could feel it. He got stuck and I couldn't feel enough to push him out. This went on for several hours. I remember thinking "I can't do this, I'm done". He would get partially out and then disappear again. That feeling of total surrender will never leave me. I was baked. The physician was called and he used suction to deliver my son. This is how I felt after the venus transit and knowing the solstice is bearing down on me. I was done, totally.

And then somewhere in the middle of June 8, it all lifted. I got excited, very excited. My energy shifted. I know I can make it, I can do it. This transfiguration is coming to a close with the Solstice. I can only imagine what that will be like but I am pretty sure, I'll survive.

No wonder you only get one venus transit in a lifetime. It really really really sucks. And now it all starts to make sense.