Once in a lifetime

The venus transit is reported to occur once in a person's lifetime. It comes in pairs-two of them, separated by several years-this is my primitive understanding. I believe I read that the last venus transit was on June 8, 2004 coupled with it's mate June 5-6, 2012.

I don't remember the one in 2004. I do remember that around that time is when I left a 20 year marriage. Twas the hardest thing I had done in my life at that time. Notice I said at that time because I thought that I was done It was so difficult that I couldn't imagine having any more life challenges. It took me a few years to get back on my emotional feet again and then my life spiraled and I do mean spiraled into something in which I am just now freeing myself. Here at the time of the closing of the gates, the 2nd transit.

Note to self next go around: Do not ask for enlightenment before the venus transit....or do, if you really want it. You have to REALLY want it to survive it. And I did want it, with all of my heart and soul, it is what I wanted. It was a call so loud to me that all I could do was follow. And it didn't make sense.

On the day of the transit, June 5, I was juiced up, in good spirits and feeling pretty energetic (which has been rare since the 11-11-11). On June 6, I was feeling extremely floaty or ungrounded and tired. Sleeping most of the day. Then on June 7, I slept the entire day. I went from bed to couch and back to bed. Couldn't move. I was glued prone and I was glued supine, and then on my side, too. It was like a magnet had me. I was transfixed.

It reminded me of the birth of my son. I had an epidural which didn't take all the way. When he came down the birth canal, I could feel it. He got stuck and I couldn't feel enough to push him out. This went on for several hours. I remember thinking "I can't do this, I'm done". He would get partially out and then disappear again. That feeling of total surrender will never leave me. I was baked. The physician was called and he used suction to deliver my son. This is how I felt after the venus transit and knowing the solstice is bearing down on me. I was done, totally.

And then somewhere in the middle of June 8, it all lifted. I got excited, very excited. My energy shifted. I know I can make it, I can do it. This transfiguration is coming to a close with the Solstice. I can only imagine what that will be like but I am pretty sure, I'll survive.

No wonder you only get one venus transit in a lifetime. It really really really sucks. And now it all starts to make sense.